happiness

2007-06-15T14:55:00.000+08:00

things in life happen and disappear very fast. let us all slow down boy!

i have moved to http://slowdownboy.livejournal.com

livejournal for its great benefits(:

2007-06-05T00:12:00.000+08:00

whoo. staying over at seah's place. just like the old times during secondary school days. we watched priceless at cine and walked back. now, seah is playing cs and melving is using ccleaner to clean up seah's other comp. and me? im using his laptop to blog this.

oh! the good ole days(:

global day of prayer

2007-05-28T01:34:00.000+08:00

friday was saturate night rally!
paradise band is good.
i like this song,

Assuredly Yours

All that I am is in You
All that I seek is to follow You
I run to Your side when You call
There is the hope I am longing for

Just to be by your side
There is hope in my life
There is no greater freedom I’ll find

So take my life
And all that I have to give
Take my world
Just inhabit all of it
Take my dreams
Make me assuredly Yours

yesterday was i-hope!
today was global day of prayer!

the exodus of national stadium.

PRAY

2007-05-10T22:20:00.000+08:00

school today was long, and tiring. i died from 4.30pm onwards. couldnt absorb anything that happened during chem remedial. oops.

tmr napfa again, i got bronze last week cause of the E i got for my jump. the rest were A. so tmr i am just gonna keep jumping until i get a D or even better a C, and then do the rest of the stations. hmm. (: wish me everything you have. haha.

2007-05-09T22:44:00.000+08:00

she cautiously said hi, fearful of him, of what he had done to her in the past. he had ignored her for months now, avoiding eye contact when they were near. she screamed at him, but he turned and looked at others.

something in his heart went off. he knew he had been nasty, and just plain mean. he tried to change, but he never had the courage to.

but today, he took the step that made history. he looked at her and replied. he then promised with sincerity her that he would care more about her. and told her that he has always been needing her. with happyness, she threw herself into his hands.

and she, is my step by step chem study guide. there's chem test tmr.

2007-05-09T18:55:00.000+08:00

i decided not to change my template. waste of time.

2007-05-08T12:47:00.000+08:00

i think maybe it's time to change this lovey dovey layout. it's so sec 3. haha

wonderful God.

2007-05-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

School cross country runs started because the rugby pitches were flooded. There was an alternative: extra studying. This meant there were plenty of runners on sports afternoons. Gordon Pirie
haha right, those were the times.

it's a wonder how God speaks to you. i was reading the bible this morning and came across this verse about doing God's will, and i was really hit by it. in church during service, the speaker spoke of doing His will in our lives. i think that God is the only one who can do things like this, speaking to mere humans with such simplicity, yet so much conviction.

and i made a decision to live my life for Him.

God

2007-05-05T21:27:00.000+08:00

God, would you take me by my hand?

2007-05-05T20:30:00.000+08:00

i think maybe i had failed terribily at the president's award interview today. i think i was too nervous, it's my first ever interview in my lifetime afterall. i don't know why, but i just couldn't express my feelings, express what i am. i was just talking about what i did, and what i did and what i did and so on. there wasn't much thoughts or reflections on what i did, and i think this really don't meet the requirements of the panelists. however, i still can say it was a good experience today, my first ever interview. (: and the panelists were rather nice. but i'm abit afraid of rejection. i don't know. i keep asking myself why, do i want the president's award so badly. why.

2007-03-22T21:06:00.000+08:00

it's like, yay finally it's over! but it wasn't. i wasn't really glad that terms ended today. one, for i know i would be doing badly, two, for i know i did not do my best. time to study nathan.

injury.

2007-03-11T02:03:00.000+08:00

i really do hope my injury is waving me bye. been starting to do some easy running after 3 weeks of break. because of my overuse injury and then falling sick. nationals is in a months time, okay to be exact it is in 5 weeks time. would i be able to get my fitness back? would i be able to recover from my injury completely? would i be able to push past my present limits? trust God. He will give it to me if He wants to.

so yes, the holidays are here! 1 week. and after that term exams. i gotta do well for it, if not would have to go down for SSP and hence miss training. i have decided that after nationals, i would not run track. first of all, i need to pick my work up and start studying. moreover, it's not like i'm some champion runner who can definitely win a race already. next, nationals is like 4 weeks before prelims. if i go for track, my june holidays would be spent on training and on training, when it is actually time for me to prepare for prelims. yah. i guess theses reasons warrant me a right to not run.

anyway, i applied for president's award, a award for BB Primers. yup, hope i do well.

havent really been spending time with God recently. neglecting Him.

tomorrow is combined service for our Church's anniversary. (: great time tmr i hope. and then i will head down to acsi in the afternoon for the ending of the Drill Instructor Training camp, my last camp as a BB boy.

it's late, gonna go off now. see ya folks.

2007-02-28T22:08:00.000+08:00

recognition.

–noun

1.	an act of recognizing or the state of being recognized.

2.	the identification of something as having been previously seen, heard, known, etc.

3.	the perception of something as existing or true; realization.

4.	the acknowledgment of something as valid or as entitled to consideration: the recognition of a claim.

why do people desire to be recognized, for the things that they have done?

we, humans, are nothing and yet we want to be important. we want to be something. something may mean being heard or being seen, or even being known. hence we humans do things to earn praises, get good impressions, be known. image becomes very important. with a bad image, who would want to take a look at you even if you have saved the world? image transform into facade.

but we must remember, we are nothing. nothing with Jesus dying on the cross for us. yes i mean die. he saved us from our state of oblivion. we become known. known as a child. precious. lovely. known as a child of God.

2007-01-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

wow, i haven't blogged for eons. first of all, lam, i hope you have been well in Canada. that you had a great time with your family over Christmas.

okay this is freaky, blogger checks your grammar now? oh my. anyway i have been down with the common cold with blocked nose, cough and sore throat so i didnt turn up for school on friday. i had missed 2 trainings so far. i prayed that i will recover by tomorrow. anyway, life has been going rather well, and i am thankful. but still, i'm kind of missing the holidays when the stress level was low. but time doesnt go back, what do i do? i move on with it.

anyway my supp papers were not good, and i really got to buck up. currently, im trying to do my best in balancing my God, school, sport and social life. i wanna do well. i love you people.

random

2006-12-23T13:19:00.000+08:00

everytime i attempt to log into blogger, there's this new blogger option lying there waiting for me to click. wonder what it is, but never dared to try it. fear of new, fear of losing old. the fear that has reigned in many hearts, well in fewer hearts now, where newer is better mentality rules. i want time to revert to the good ole days, when i dont have to care what people think of me, when i am so much more free among my friends. i feel rather restricted around the people i hang around with in school, which is maybe the reason i dread school reopening. okay, maybe i dread school reopening also because of the reexams i have to undertake. mathamaticks and fisiks.

my hands are stained
not with blood but guilt
causing myself pain and shame
hiding behind the fortress i had built

without your sacrifice and love
life would be so much without worth
living my life in denial
would be the only way i desire

but you came and you intervene
walls of my fortress demolished
my guilt-stained hands were washed white clean
giving me freedom in life again

my falls and failures happened so often
they were forgotten when you picked me up
the costs of my life and freedom
are nails through your hands, again and again

thank you Jesus for dying for me.

and if only school could happened the way like in secondary school.
i miss the stayovers, melvin and seah.

2006-12-21T02:10:00.000+08:00

my life needs some discipline.

half marathong and everything else.

2006-12-09T14:57:00.000+08:00

the race

stay over photo

and so the half marathon is over and i completed it.(: i am happy. got a rather good timing. haha. praise God that my groin injury didnt act up and it's healing. i hope it will be gone soon. the stayover before the race was fun haha, we got like nothing to do after dinner cause there's no air con till 10pm. (school's generator is retarded)

and like what khing wrote, the fantabulous ACX met at Adelphi multi-storey carpark in the wee hours of 3 December to prepare for our run. and we ran, and ran, and ran in the excellent refreshing weather. shiok. i was trying to spot marathoners uncle bernard and sharon during the run but to no avail. (later i found out sharon is not running this year) and soon during the run, i found myself at marina, what i see are trees, people and roads. and a bit later i found myself wetter, with the 100plus i spilled onto my body trying to drink while running. and then i decided not to drink anymore. the part of the run i like most was through the CBD are, where echos are made due to the tall buildings all around and no cars are seen because the roads were closed. shiok. then came the last 4 km where i pace this lady who is in her 50s. freaky man, she runs fast for a woman at that age. ( she got 5th placing for women's half marathon in the end i think) then at the last 500m or so, i pulled away from her taking the cue from Mr Ang who said "nathan, time to open up". and hence i open my stride, thinking it will just be the last 200m. but BOOM, the road never ends. my legs start to get heavy, i wanna give up. but no, i said to myself, no. give up now? when i have less then 1 km left? NO. i continue to stride. and persevere. i wanted to cry. pain pain pain. everywhere. my posture must have looked very ugly alr. and thank goodness, i see the sign. it said FINISH. and i speed up more into a sprint. unfortunately, 2 runners over took me. argh. but neverthelsss, i crossed the line feeling satisfied. (:

it was very enjoyable cause of the super nice cloudy weather. and because i know God gave me a gift to be able to run a bit faster than others and i have used it. (:

after the race, i went back home to pack for my family's KL trip, and went up the buss at 3.30pm at world trade centre. (singapore one la).

KL trip

it was basically a shopping and eating trip. got nice clothes at low prices and had delicious famous food at low prices too. hence, it was a low price SHIOK trip. hurr.

my family at KLCC
so i had a nice fun week, but i missed out alot of time to do work! sudy! ah. hence im gonna go off now, to do physics.

BLT's video.

2006-11-30T11:06:00.000+08:00

http://video.google.com/videoplay?docid=3477108537208786893
this video, directed by one of acsi students, is one i would say "freaking zai". about cops and triads. watch the whole thing to understand everything. (:

(oh yah, it's acted by acsi students)

2006-11-27T16:57:00.000+08:00

yesterday after service, nina, wei en, my bro, eduard, aaron and i went to visit kevin at the Communicable Diseases Centre. he was admitted due to dengue, which he got from a mission trip to indonesia with his dad. we were there from 5 to 8, talking, playing cards and watching tv. haha. he looks rather okay, hope he can be discharged soon and go JYC camp. (: anyway, CDC is such a horrible place to stay in, practically run down and all. the patients inside must be feeling quite miserable. but it is rather close to nature la, plants and everything.

eduard and my brother. we were on our way to get a drink.

eduard falling off the trolley

my bro timothy, eduard and i. (:

so we left the place at 8 after praying for kevin, and i found out that i have a very fast way to get home from Novena/Toa Payoh/Braddel. always thought i have to travel all the way down the mrt line, when i can actually stop at newton to take a fast bus home. haha.

today had training in the morning, did 5 sets of 6.30 instead of 10 cause we're tapering already for this sunday. both my forth toes are painful and one is blood clotting. hope it's not the shoes cause i would have to endure till april. I JUST BOUGHT THEM!!

okay later im going to kinokuniya with my parents to buy books using the $300 bucks voucher my mum got. shiok.

2006-11-26T12:20:00.000+08:00

today is sunday and yesterday's training at macritchie was pain. my left leg could not lift for the rest of yesterday. ran for 2 hours, then had lunch at adam road. after that the rest went expo for adidas warehouse sale while ee cheong me and darius went home. when i got home, i was too tired to do anything. so i turned on the computer, played a game of dota, blog surf and went to sleep. i felt like i was drunk. haha. woke up at seven plus, watched tv, bad company, then did math. then i slept at 12.

during lunch, i was quite surprised by fiona's diet of low carbo and high protein. and then low protein and dunno what. dunno how she managed with low carbo one.

by the way, the dsa students(2 guys and 1 girl) came yesterday and they were not bad considering that they havent really trained for months. they are good. haha. anyway, half marathon is exactly one week away and im rather excited. (:

okay, im going off to church already.

drunk on running. alone.

bb sgb opening ceremony

2006-11-25T01:11:00.000+08:00

it seems like im on a blogging spree. this morning went down to ck tan for bb sgb opening ceremony.
became a reporter (have to wear formal) and actually recorded what Mr Teo Chee Hean said during his interview. the channel news asian reporter is really good, able to speak both english and mandrin well. wow. well after the whole ceremony thing, melvin zhenyang and i went down to suntec to collect race packs for our half marathon.

me and melvin

melvin has to go down another time to collect his cause he didnt bring his confirmation slip! met the cross team there. hmm yeah, i didnt go down for training today cause of the opening ceremony. after collecting, went home for a 5km run then went church for cell. prayed during cell cause this week is like prayer week. our whole church will be praying for Singapore around the clock. yes 24 hours a day. everybody take different shifts. haha. we're not superman la. after cell, went to eat and then come home. played a game of dota with my brother online the now blogging. tmr got training at 8am. so i better go sleep now. see yah people.(:

2006-11-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

today played frisbree! okay after playing today, realized that my throwing sucks very big time. really have to improve if i want to play with the pros. if not i'm gonna be a burden. after frisbree, the scthree people decided to go toa payoh to eat. haha, didnt join them cause it's so far away and now my life is on budget. so waited for justin and then he me and aaron went holland for lunch. they went subway first while i went to buy my curry rice. wah, curry rice super shiok. but still cant beat the scissors curry rice near sean's house. that one really owned. anyway, i am supposed to study now, was doing math and now gonnna do more math. and im not watching prison break.): aiya, my mum not happy with me already, been playing too much. playing = training, going out, movie. meals. which is basically what i have been doing. haha. yes. i better study more for my supp exams in january.

tomorrow im gonna miss training due to the BB Sharity Gift Box Opening Ceremony at CK Tangs. i dont have to wear BB uniform which looks like one of a security guard. i get to wear any formal wear, shirt and pants.

im going to collect my half marathon race pack tmr too at suntec. and at night got prayer meeting.

think i should go run myself tmr morning. half marathon approaching.

2006-11-22T23:26:00.000+08:00

today had swim training. im getting faster. then had water polo after that. abit the boring, lose like free like that. haha. after that had debrief then exco meeting, then lunch at ghim moh. then went to exchange my backpack for bianca's duffle and ipod. got all her songs on my comp now. lke 5 GB of songs. shiok. cause after my comp crashed, i had like 20 songs left.

okay tmr, im going to go school to play some frisbree, and maybe go for lunch, return the ipod and go home to STUDY. im gonna try do some math now before i sleep, which is probably at 1am. goodnight humaaannnss.

(oh yah, im very very dark now, my mum say very ugly. ask me stop getting dark. maybe i need sk2 for my whole body.)

2006-11-21T22:38:00.000+08:00

father God, take hold of my heart. and never let it go. let it please You. You are the reason i live. praise You.

in Jesus name,
amen.

justin's birthday!

2006-11-21T00:22:00.000+08:00

happy birthday justin tan yi liang!(:

it's his birthday today and we celebrated it by holding a surprise birthday dinenr at changing appetites (marina square). jeremiah couldnt make it but what can i do? anyway there was training this morning at acsi. did the 6 and a half minutes workout for ten sets. so i covered roughly 15 km including warm up. half marathon is next sunday! wow. after training met bernice and raymond at acjc before we head to town to have pepperlunch with gabriel. then after lunch we went to watch casino royale at cine but gabriel had to go off for tuition. yup. the movie was quite nice, i think 007 is cool. and i find the guy who was running away from bond at the start of the show super agile and superhuman. he jumps like some frog like that. okay then after the show, we walked around wisma and wheelock before we go take the train. i went city hall while they go back. i met up with the rest and went to the restaurant to wait for justin. heh. i guess he was quite surprised. today spent alot of money! ah. okay going go off to do a schedule for my studies. gd night everyone. go do your QT!

ccaab camp!

2006-11-18T14:43:00.000+08:00

err! this is my 204th post only. havent been blogging much this year, and hence losing all my faithful readers. haha. well, i just came back from CCAAB camp! it stands for CCA advisory board camp in case you are wondering what's that. i realized that i suddenly could write in a blog again! whoo. anyway CCAAB was super fun and is i think the best camp i ever had in my life. ( i quite often think that after every GOOD camp). i made new friends and i really hope to be able to stay as friends even after this camp. i hate it when you get into something, you made new friends, and then lose them after the thing ends. like orientation. yah. many many many things happened during the camp.

the first day was in school where we found out who is in our groups. i was quite glad that jonny is in my group(jonny is my classmate, the LIFEGUARDS vice pres). then there are also other people whom i knew a little before this camp, like Raymond(SHOOTING captain) and Gabriel(BADMINTON captain). i never even seen some of the others in school before. then we proceeded to cook our lunch. lunch was rather tasty, compared to other outfield cooking i did before. usually only eat instant noodles and sausages or luncheon meat only. this time got curry chicken. after lunch, we proceed to the camp site at some ulu place in LIM CHU KANG. i been there before la, last year during AQ exploration before the race itself. oh ya, and also during the race itself where we were disqualified due to the cut off time s: okay im sidetracking already. sry. then we had boat rafting there at the sea, my first time ever. woot! quite fun la, and also found a sense of achievement and shiokness when i realized that the raft we built actually works. haha. then after that had dinner and leadership workshop.

day two was fun with all the high ropes and firefox plus rapelling. i suck at high ropes man, hate heights la. cannot finish the stupid single rope course. or maybe im too short. haha. then the firefox was super SHIOK!!!! think i never do before. the rapelling was good cause i managed to bounce this time. think the previous times i never bounce. so yes, the day two was good with all the exciting fun stuff. at night got OPERATION DODO BIRD. what that? you may ask. sound quite retarded right? it's actually a wargame that takes place every year during CCAAB camp. very massive and fun. can say that it's better than the usual BB camp war games. this one got more props. like SPONGEBOB our hostage and ELMO our secret agent who was caught by the other team. after the game, i slept real fast cause super tiring. then at one plus, the firedrill happened. i knew it will be that night and was quite prepared for it. so yah lor, get pumped and the usual stuff.

day three was situational games where i realized our team spirit was super good. btw, my group is called SOLOMON. after that we cleaned up the place and went back to acjc. home sweet school. we had camp fire at night, really enjoyed that. all the actings and cheerings. see how all my acsi friends become so prominent made me feel quite proud of them. or proud to be an acsian for the past 5 years. then we went to bed and nightmare happened. got woke up at 4am!!! for the final challenge. super super challenging having to transport our causualty from place to place. took altogether like 2 plus hours? wow. sleep deprieved. but felt very accomplished after that. after that got elections and then camp break. going back to school in the evening for dinner. got cab dropped off by raymond and bernice at holland then i had lunch with bianca. after that went back home and here i am blogging after surfing through friendster abit. lots of mail to clear but heck, another day.

i made new friends during this camp and i hope they dont just disappear like that. (:

2006-10-07T01:13:00.000+08:00

hurray! it's liberation day! no more promos. okay, better get down to list the to-do things for this season.

1. NYAA GOLD COMPLETION
2. Sharity Gift Box (BB)
3. Pack my table
4. Relax.

that's four for now. will update in a few days' time when i come out with new stuff. heh.

and for now, serious training for the half marathon. and before that, the 100km ultramarathon. retarded la.

exam time!

2006-09-27T22:49:00.000+08:00

i guess it's during the exams time when you get time to blog. haha. okay today im writing about the thing that has been gripping my heart for the whole week. due to some dumb decisions by me to go spectate something, i am now down with punishment which is going to be realized after promos. which also means through promos, i will have the agony of thinking about the possible punishments. sigh. yes, i wasnt involved in the fight, but failing to reporting it and being present at the place carries a huge something. it means i did not try to stop it. i realized that i was foolish to have done what i did. and am willing to accept the consequences. but i really do want to serve the cross team as vice captain. please do not take that away. please. i love the team. give me a chance to prove myself.

but now, i am not even sure what will happen. taking away of my cca positions? i dunno. rumours have been going around. i pray that they're not true. really. please pray for me. please.

anyway, zhen yang called me yesterday and told me that he and melvin are interested in taking part in the ultramarathon on the 10th of november! and i agreed to join them. sounds very daunting..heh. it is.

2006-09-26T00:07:00.000+08:00

tmr the principal gonna talk to me and all my teachers.. now i have to go to school. when i really need to stay at home to catch up in my studies. nevermind, i shall do math during GP video period and sleep during pw lesson. *grin.

2006-09-24T19:51:00.000+08:00

i think that one of the most difficult things in the world to handle are relationships. (i wonder if i have said that before) life is made of relationships, and it's very not possible to live your life without relationships. i think i would die without relations with other people, and that includes God. no God = no life. i personally have failed God a dozen zillion times and he forgave me each time. yes, all the time. praise His Name. i need God's help very often, to not forget Him and who He is to me when i am living my daily dosage of friends, school, family etc. i want to remember God every minute of my life, and glorify Him, but often i forget.

anyway, the exams are nearing and the first paper is GP! i have to pass this H1 no matter what. it has higher chances than Economics. exams end on the 10th october, and i need God's grace to go through all this. PROMOTE. PROMOTE!

the hike.

2006-09-01T12:52:00.000+08:00

it's time to say bye to civilization and off to hiking with BB. i'll be away at acsi hougang seletar for the next two days without bathing, walking and walking to find checkpoints after checkpoints.(: hmm. yes it's the holidays. im more free than normal. but promos is coming in 4 weeks time.

this week was busy with many meeting ups with acsi people. haha. first, monday was melvin's birthday. we surprised him at heeren nydc. (= then wednesday was marcus lim's birthday, a surprised one too! then yesterday, which is thursday, we had farewell dinner for lam. he's going off to canada to study for half a year. how fast la, compared to our singapore A levels which will only finished end of next year. hope lam can adapt well in canada and continue to grow in God as he finds a church there. okay im gonna go off to pack for my hike and then go to bukit gombak stadium to sign up for standard chartered half marathon later. okay, see you all dudes and dudettes.

peace out!

feeling so tired):

2006-08-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

hello folks. been wondering what's my life about. anyway, i got myself two tuitions to help me. physics and math. and maybe this explains why im so tired now at the end of the week. i need sleep desperately. haha. promos are in 5 weeks time. yawnn..

2006-08-13T22:28:00.000+08:00

language is not a barrier for the Holy Spirit. goodnight.

2006-08-10T23:52:00.000+08:00

i've been having knee problems and losing stuff. including all the photos, songs and documents in my computer and my 10 year old digital watch. i hope i find the later in school tmr.

2006-08-07T20:14:00.000+08:00

time went past like a breeze, really like a breeze. can you believe it? it is august now and soon, the september holidays will be here and then poof! christmas. and there goes one whole year. i think one of the reasons is that the time i spend at home is getting lesser and lesser and by the time i start to feel comfortable at home, it's another new day of school and this goes on for 5 days in a week. haha. den saturday, BB in the morning and training in the afternoon. sunday church. so yes, i spend really little time at home.

Yeah uh uh
So much stress keeps running through my mind now.
Fell into a mess that I that wish that I could climb out.
I guess I hide it so nobody’ll find out,
The way everyone thinks that everything is fine now.

So God if your there do u understand?
Don’t you care about anything that’s happenin?
It’s not fair to put me through all this junk again.
You see that I’m scared, so help me if you can.

So please speak loud and clear ‘cause I’m listenin'.
I need to know that you’re real ‘cause I’m strugglin'.
You need to show that your here ‘cause I’m stumblin'.
Show me that you care this is why I’m saying this

Are you real?
I want to know (I want to know)
Are you real?
Then let it go (you got to let it go)

Are you real?
I want to know (I want to know)
Are you real?
Then let it show (you got to let it show)

It was right then, when everything began to change.
I started looking at these things in a different way.
I saw life through God’s eyes and it wasn’t the same,
And it was right at the time I called on your name.

Then I saw all these lies that was thrown away.
I recognized that I need you and on that day,
I cried out and seek you, that was when you came.
Now that I see you, I’ve been through a major change.

And I believe that you’re real ‘cause its so plain.
I finally feel I can make it through anything.
It don’t matter what they speak or if they hate.
They can’t keep me down no more ‘cause I seen your face.

2006-08-06T20:55:00.000+08:00

i am quite sad that i have to use windows2000, when i'm so used to windowsxp. aiya. blame it on the stupid virus that wiped out my whole system. viruses are stupid, why are they created anyway?!

who comes here? haha

2006-07-02T21:22:00.000+08:00

it's 9.19pm. my paternal relatives just left the place after my grandma's birthday dinner. she's 87, born in 1919. that's like quite old and she's still so healthy. she must have good genes and im glad of it(: cause she's my grandma. went for connection today and im late again, im always late. it's a habitual thingy that needs to be dealt with. i cant be in a ministry and not put my heart into it right? if not must well not join. okay now move on to school, last week was just papers all the way and it was so slack. much much more slack than normal school days, when i spend like 12 hours in school. so i was quite happy that i get to spend more time at home sleeping, and of cause studying for the papers. the papers were difficult, no potential A's. and physics has become my biggest challenge since. i guess i was never good in physics, comparing my secondary school grades, seeing how much my chemistry improve and how stagnant my physics grade was. training's been good, i like them. and i see the difference in my performance after training for middle distance and doing 800m timed trials every friday during the holidays. my stamina suffered. tried to do a 5km time trial last friday and couldnt really run well. that's why im back to long dist training. been contemplating about joining new balance real run in august. see whether melvin or marcus wants to join me in this expensive venture. $25 to run at sentosa. but there's goodie bags of cause, a shirt, a arm pouch and a shoe bag. actually come to think of it, it's quite a good deal. so im willing to pay for it, but only if someone wants to go with me cause it sucks to go to these kind of events alone, unless im some champion runner or whoever. okay my mum is getting me to go off her laptop. yes, im using the laptop to write this cause i find it lying on the table in my room. yes, my mum does her work in my room sometimes, that's why there's a table opposite mine. okay shall blog soon i hope, see you all then.

2006-06-27T16:21:00.000+08:00

marcus melvin and i won syfc adventure race on saturday. school started yesterday with gp term paper. i had physics SPA today. tmr's economics. s: econs.. i hope im a good mugger.

2006-06-19T00:50:00.000+08:00

wah, today i had my first track competition. 800m. did my PB but it's like a long way from the top timings.. finished like last few in the men's open. i need a haircut by the way and a shopping trip to town. (:

2006-06-07T19:22:00.000+08:00

i think im not close to God. im in a desert. i am like what beatrice had said, going home without anything. i have no idea what i had brought home from church camp. maybe sadness and frustration. i wished it was all like 2 years ago.. when i was younger and church camp seemed so enriching.

i hate it when people twist my words and accuse me of what i didnt do.

2006-05-16T22:59:00.000+08:00

it's a floop. i will be satisfied to just see you happy after everything happened today.. i could only see the reluctance and the unwillingness to accept what was being given to you. you werent happy at all. i wished i never gave it away. my fault, my fault. s:

anyway, happy 17th birthday bianca!

aye dang, there's math test tmr and i want to pass it.

the life cycle of a student.

leaving

2006-05-07T10:04:00.000+08:00

it's such a heart wrenching thing when someone has to leave. my maid has left this morning and is going back to indonesia..and my new maid is coming later on. sigh, have to build new relationship again. i will miss my maid.

2006-05-01T00:49:00.000+08:00

after so many retarded failures, i would just be happy to have a sub 9 for my 2.4 timing. how's that?(: i hope i do it. goodnight.

2006-03-30T19:58:00.000+08:00

haha, blog entries can be quite misleading sometimes. anyway, back to the story, tomorrow will be a stayover at someone's place then on saturday morning(maybe 4 or 5 o clock), we will go for the aq. it's finally here. i cant wait for it. but now, must rest. i hope my twisted ankle gets well fully by saturday.. twisted it on sunday during basketball. s: CAs are coming! and i am not even prepared. although i feel that this year i became abit more hardworking, i still think it's not enough, if you compare with many other people. i shall start working hard. (:

2006-03-19T10:21:00.000+08:00

i am surely not romantic when i behave the way i do. i dont want to be the way i am to you.

wooh, the stayover was quite havoc and fun. we played night catching and risk! all the way until 4 in the morning.

2006-03-12T20:25:00.000+08:00

aq training camp ended today. quite fun la..haha. i really wish my team can really push each other on the race day, without any tension. havent really been running much these few days..dunno whether tmr got training. wednesday got bike training fomr 9 to 5. hahha, it's like working hours right? then friday got wings cross race. grr grr grrr. must improve.

please..no.

2006-03-04T02:27:00.000+08:00

please dont hate me,
im doing what i got to do.
and i dont think i know what to do.
wrongly i think many things i will do.
please dont hate me.
best friend.(:

2006-02-25T12:45:00.000+08:00

i didnt go camp in the end cause i was poisoned.
i couldnt sleep and started puking at 4 till 6 plus. slept thru and didnt go school. woke up at 2. still not feeling well. didnt go camp. went for cell dinner instead. came back. still not well. didnt go bb. hope i get well soon. s:

i miss you.
everyday i do.
dont go.
dont stop.
freeze.
miss.

2006-02-23T23:05:00.000+08:00

tmr i will away for bb primers orientation camp till saturday 6pm. shall try to attend nick's birthday party after the camp! haha. HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICK IN ADVANCE!

okay, im quite worried about AQ which is on the first of april. adventure racing, which i havent really been training for, except for the running part. but brisk walking and jogging use different muscles! dunno how. there's the cycling, kayaking and rock climbing to train for.

Fri 17/2- AQ Map Reading Test

Thur 23/2- Endurance Run 15km

Fri 24/2- Hiking in Yishun

Fri 3/3- Hiking in Sengkang

Thur 9/3- Endurance Run 15km

Fri 10/3- Hiking in Shenton Way, Marina Bay

Mon 13/3- Cycling in Bukit Timah, Mandai

Wed 15/3- Canoeing in Bedok Reservoir

Fri 17/3- Cycling in Sunset Way (Interval Training)

Sat 18/3- Rock Climbing/ Abseiling in ACS/ ClimbAsia

Mon 20/3- Archery

Fri 24/3- Canoeing in Bedok Reservoir

Thur 30/3- Preparation

Fri 31/3- Centrestage (Chill out/ supper)

of all these, i havent attended any. haha.

and im currently stressed out by my nyaa gold logging. need to hand in!! ahh..

okay, now im having stomach problems. why?

had chicken rice with chilli for recess. had fried noodles plus fried fish and half a pear for second recess. had ice chendol drink after school. and a KFC shrooms meal after that. came back home had fried bee hoon plus grilled chicken drumplets for dinner. ahh..haha.

okay the time is 11.13pm. shall go sleep soon. goodnight!

2006-02-21T22:52:00.000+08:00

ahh blog. why is it so difficult? i want God.

2006-02-19T00:28:00.000+08:00

today was a good running day as i had performed rather well in SAA cross country. i improved(: .

sometimes i wish life goes on in a much slower pace, when nothing has to be rushed, not even homework. i want to live a day in the 18th century. to enjoy the beauty of normal pace life in the past. i want to have nothing to do at all for a day, where there are no television or computers to distract you.

on the other hand, i like running fast.
haha, im weird.

2006-02-12T01:32:00.000+08:00

my running is getting slower everyday. i did 18.34 for 4.5km just now. ah. nvm, there's always time to improve. i do believe i can improve.i want to fly!

2006-02-09T23:35:00.000+08:00

things have happened and passed. and there are many times when i looked back and my heart ache. and other times my heart smiles, like a happy chirping young boy with a new love. i'm sorry for the things that i have done, no matter whether you like it or not, i'm in the wrong. i'm sorry. i'm sorry for bringing you so much pain, so many depressing moments, so many unhappy memories. at the same time, i wanna tell you i treasure the times we had. thank you for them, for the beautiful memories(:

yesterday's race wasn't a good one but nevertheless, it was a great lesson. came in 22th in acjc. deproved in my timing. guessed it's my slacking. haha. or the sickness that i only recovered from last week. s: okay no excuses. hard training from now on. 2 competitions for this and next saturday. and tomorrow's o level results. trust God.

2006-01-28T23:38:00.000+08:00

first and foremost, happy chinese new year to you as you read this. (: may yours wishes come true and your year be blessed with God's goodness and grace!

i think i have ordered this new running shoe.(im not sure yet, will know on wednesday)woot. i think i would really love it.

i am sick and has been sick for the past few weeks. saw the doc for the second time on thursday night which i waited 2 and a half hours for.(that doc's really famous, HAHA). and guess what? i forgot to ask for the receipt! so i went down this morning to ask for it but to my dismay, they're closing from yesterday(friday) to tuesday. so yeah, i went home after buying batteries and blue tack for my mum.

today's reunion dinner day! my family went over to my mum's parents side for dinner and for the first time in my life(i think), we are there the earliest. usually we would be one of the latest.(:

as the dinner went on just now, i was thinking to myself about how time really flies. it has been a year since i saw some of my relatives and yeah, chinese new year is one of the few times we get together. we usually dont have time to meet up and stuff, and when we do, we realized how much everyone has changed, whether in terms of appearance or the things they are doing. i realized that building relationships are important. very. absolute.

i think i miss my sec three hairstyle! haha(:

okay goodnight and happy new year people!

2006-01-20T14:59:00.000+08:00

hey blog,

my class was okay. there are 7 girls and 20 guys. haha. cool right?(: we got our time table today and it's not as bad as i thought it would be. the latest time that we end school is 410 for this first intake.

bt is quiting cross ): i hope he changes his mind..but i think the chances are slim.
sometimes i really wish that i have more friends in cross. yeah i know everything takes time, and i shall wait on..

oh yah,im in the school library now waiting for cross training to start. the group went out for bowling already.i think i will do my nyaa logging after blogging, which i find such a chore. haha. im lazy.

okay i shall go do it now.
try to be happy.
out.

2006-01-17T22:31:00.000+08:00

im excited cause tmr im finding out who's in my class. i do not want to party. i want to study hard and train hard. i love you guys and girls! (random)

out.

2006-01-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

wow. im actually training. i like running, and i have lots to improve on. im willing to learn and endure pain. but im slow! however, i will be happy to just be faster.(:

2006-01-12T22:33:00.000+08:00

so it is,

orientation came to an end last friday with a campfire and the series of introductory lectures followed this week. after much direction and propaganda, i came to my choice of subjects and they are econs H1, and physics chem math H2, in short PCME. i went for training yesteerday and i must say i love it. i love pain and this makes me quite perverted.(: proper school's starting next week and things are gonna get busier than now which can be described as holidaying mode. haha. i pray that God will give me strength to cope with every thing and i know that He will provide.(:

welcome to my orientation group! theodore is not in the pic.

goodnight blog!(:

2006-01-01T01:39:00.000+08:00

it's a new day. it's a new month. it's a new year. 2006. a new phase of my life. entering junior college. i'm going acjc for the first three months this year. i hope it'll be an enriching experience(: anyway, happy new year to everyone.

2005-12-26T00:05:00.000+08:00

happy christmas to all. may you all have love,joy and peace in ur heart as we celebrate the birth of Jesus Christ. love,nathan.

SGB

2005-12-17T02:46:00.000+08:00

today, i went for my second BB Sharity Gift Box duty. i was sent to bukit timah plaza ntuc box. haha. the box is right next to a durian stall, and this sec2 guy from tanglin sec and i made friends with him. we ended up having free durians to eat, and free kfc chicken which he used his rambutans to trade for. haha. so cool. after duty, i went over to ying xian's house for cell bbq. of cause la, i didnt go for the start. i went for the ending alr. when i reached the place, my feet were aching cause my boots interior is HARD. and i have been standing on this pair of hard uncomfortable boots for at least 5 hours. haha. you see, bb boots soles dont really have good cushions. or at least for my batch of boots. i think the newer batches have good cushions. yah and it was a long walk in and a long walk out of the place. aye. now im tired. goodnight!

HELLO BLOG!

2005-12-14T03:10:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!!

i guess it's time to have a decent blog entry after the great absence. haha. i hope some still comes here! i think i shall just post some photos here as a entry.

this is sean me and eduard. we're in church and in ian's working cubicle playing around.

on national day. me melvin and seah in our BB uniforms. we had our awards ceremony that day also. haha. im a staff sergeant.

a BB group photo taken after everything. how cool?

another bb group photo sometime during the year.

i love running yes i do.

during the acsi senior's night! the so called prom. see? guys will always be rowdy. haha. that's roy lifting lam up. and mikhail is just behind.

a photo with our english teacher. Ms Chew Ka Wai. :D

jun and i. he's holding roy's drumsticks. oh yah, that's cause our class put up an item for the night. they played "wake me up when september ends". well, our senior's night was on the 30th of september. and the o levels were drawing near. we needed to wake up.

a candid shot! everyone's having fun! haha.

me and melvin. after games of basketball with the dunearn team. we had friendly matches between the BB team and the Dunearn Sec team. hurr.

i guess all these are enough for today. i have to go and sleep. will be catching king kong with lam melvin and seah tmr at 1pm. goonight!

2005-11-30T22:40:00.000+08:00

my days suck la. so busy. i got SGB today. then tomorrow to saturday got BB camp. im dying alr. im falling. help.

2005-11-21T01:12:00.000+08:00

well, exams are over. and it's like one month since i blogged last time. well, yay! no more o levels, it's the BIG HOLIDAYS. and during the HOLIDAYS, i have many many activities going on. just to name a few, i have jyc camp, bb meetings, bb camp, teens camp, ycite camp,and a very important thing to understand and solve. i dont know what to do. teach me what to do. i tried my best, and and got a few pieces of hurt after. the hurting adds up till i dont really dare to go back to the past, cause you're like a two-faced person. you tease me like crazy and i tried to take everything in and absorb it in. and let it out afterwards, through my dumb old tears. you see, crying does something in ur heart. and the end of the routine is the praying part. i prayed that all these can be over soon and for wisdom, to do whatever i need to do.

2005-10-21T23:51:00.000+08:00

hello there.

it's been one month since i last blogged. time flies huh. oh yah, and it's also the day when i'm 16years and 5months old. isn't that like very near 17 already? oh yeah, time flies. okay so let's talk about what's gonna happen in 4 weeks time.in4 weeks time, o levels would be over for me. it would mark the end of my secondary school life and then the start of my schooless life. it willbe the time when the IB people gets to go out with the mainstream. everything will be so..light. but till then, it's the BIG o's. yeah let's study hard together. anyway, i just had a nice bbq.

bye blog.(see you in 1 month's time)

post-prelims

2005-09-21T23:39:00.000+08:00

i'm back to blogging for now. prelims are finally over.
a group of us went to play pool after our last paper, geog paper 1. heh, and it was fun(: went home at seven plus only.
came home,talked on the phone,went online,bathed then had supper with my tenants! haha. i didnt have dinner, so, i was quite glad that we have the chance to eat vietnamese instant noodles again! this time, i tried the dry one, and it was yummy. we took a few photos. oh yah, i tried jimmy's shades and i think they're real cool.

yah, and this are the shades!

2005-09-12T16:29:00.000+08:00

look, i have written moren than a hundred seventy blog posts and i'm still writing. is there really a secret lure that sucks everyone in? hmm. anyway, i am here to say that acsi physics mcq prelims 2005 is difficult. crazy difficult. and geog just makes everyone's hand numb.literally. toot man, toot. wait man wait, the paper wasnt difficult. it was just tricky.hugh!

2005-09-10T13:07:00.000+08:00

i realized i am not so happy afterall, quite different from the name of my blog. maybe it's just the prelims and i don't really like studying and thinking about the results that i am going to get. i am scared.

2005-08-28T11:08:00.000+08:00

i want to live free,
with the word out of my mouth just freely,
Jesus.

i want to live victorious,
i already have my victory,
up to me to keep it.

victory.Jesus.

2005-08-26T14:18:00.000+08:00

i don't know what i'm doing, behaving what i'm behaving. what do i want to show them exactly?): that i won't be affected in any way due to the fact that i ____? the more i behave like that, the more they will want to blah blah right? haha, that's why i think i'm quite dumb, giving myself more stress only. i should just admit and joke about it, than to say firmly no to their teasing.i think maybe only two people will understand what all these are typed. her and her. it's not a big thing though.

anyway prelims start next monday(:

happy studying to the students.

2005-08-20T01:37:00.000+08:00

antisocial, no one likes talking to, retarded comments.haha.

yawnn. it's 1.38am. and i have tuition at 9am. better sleep soon. so next week's slack but the week after's the prelims. holiday on tuesday due to rugby c's win over st andrews and there's crosscountry on thursday.

crosscountry, i want to get my timing low low. very low. sigh. i dont know how it's gonna happen but i want it to happen! i thought of having my physics tuition again, so my mum's gonna help me call him back. haha. dont know what he thinks man. my hong kee physics teacher. i miss going to cell.

seeyou.

break fast.

2005-08-10T23:23:00.000+08:00

oh yes, i forgot to say, yesterday was the day i break my fast on the computer. but prelims are just around the corner so i think i wont be able to update as frequently as the crazy times when there's always an update for each and every day.

blogging is so weird. i think it's just a way i want to tell my life to people in an indirect way. and this makes it so scheming. or can say, lazy. heh. my education starts tomorrow again and again i have to get up early in the morning. but im quite glad that i can see my schoolmates again. and listen to their studying rampages during the long weekend. jun jie has studied quite alot, according to his blog. i feel so slow cause i only sort of finished the RI emaths paper and havent even started on the chij one. ahh. well, at least i studied bits of biology. yes, human parts. but not those parts yet, they're at the behind of the book, dont you know? oh well, time to say goodnight.

2005-08-09T22:29:00.000+08:00

i tried to talk,to get involve,to be part of something. but i have failed miserably.
can you help me?

:)!

2005-07-09T14:23:00.000+08:00

'Pooh, promise you won't forget me ever.
Not even when i'm a hundred.'
Pooh thought for a little.
'How old shall i be then?'
'Ninety-nine.'
Pooh nodded.
'I promise,' he said.

haha :) a notice on behalf of nathan:-
[nathan is fasting his computer for 40 days!]

2005-07-01T17:18:00.000+08:00

yap yip san, testing testing one two three!

first and foremost, thank you everyone who's reading this. thanks for still visiting my lifeless blog. and so here it goes, my entry.

fist week of school have just passed and i had a new tuition, cancelled a old tuition, did lots of work, and studied, and watched DRAGON BALL ZZZZ!! oh man, dragon ball is such a wacko. oh man oh man oh man. rocks rocks rocks. dragoonnnn..ball.. woot. okay STOP. yah so my life is mostly spent in school or at home. cause prelims are coming in 8 weeks! i am going to start studying for it tomorrow or next week. most probably tomorrow cause i will drag if i say that i will start next week. yes! yah. due to the hard hard studying, i shall not be updating frequently but only once in a blue moon (when is there a blue moon-_-) okay maybe say once a crescent. which is about once in a week or so, I tHiNk.
so see yah

2005-06-25T14:30:00.000+08:00

ycite camp was great. one of a kind experience. God is most glorified when i am most satisfied in him. aight.

bye bye, sweetheart!`

2005-06-17T18:01:00.000+08:00

if i were a painter,
i would paint my reverie
if thats the only way
for you to be with me
we'd be there together
just like we used to be
underneath the swirling skies
for all to see.
and i'm dreaming of a place
where i can see your face
and i know my brush could
take me there..but only..
if i were a painter
and could paint my memories
i'd climb inside the swirling skies
to be with you
i'd climb inside the skies
to be with you

declaration

2005-06-14T20:45:00.000+08:00

and here i want to declare,

I WILL BE FREE FROM YOU, SATAN.
YOU HAVE NO HOLD ON ME.
GOD IS MY STRENGTH.
I AM ALREADY FORGIVEN.
I AM FREE.

yes.

to nathan

2005-06-11T23:35:00.000+08:00

i carry your heart
(i carry it in my heart.)

piglet sidled up to pooh from behind.
"Pooh!" he whispered.
"Yes, Piglet?"
"Nothing." said piglet, taking pooh's paw.
"I just wanted to be sure of you."

i've never had a friend like you..i think you don't really have to do anything to make someone happy. i'll always be here, making sure of you(:

goodnight.

2005-06-11T18:21:00.000+08:00

and fei just passed away):

i dont know what i can do to help you. i think im really useless, not even able to say anything to make you feel better. im sorry. i will give you my best(: and i hope that you feel better. relax(:

2005-06-04T12:38:00.000+08:00

ah, finally, four days of con camp are over. they say this time it is more slack. yeah, i know. most people are slacking when they find the chance to.haha. waste MONEY.

i miss blogging. but going to con camp means no blogging for me. why? cause i reach home after ten.

okay so it's a saturday now and i have nothing fun to do. i want to do something FUN desperately but what can i do? my parents would want me to stay home and study, i think.

last of all, i am now asking all of you who wants to write something in my blog to tag and tell me. i will gladly let you, cause i wont blog for the whole of next week. hurr.

2005-05-29T23:19:00.000+08:00

why issit that now i can cry so easily? or say tear so easily? everytime i think of the situation im in now makes me sad and i dont know what to do. it is now mutually understood that i cant go out, not supposed to use the comp, not supposed to talk on the phone for much, and i have to study ALL the time. no rest time was suggested, no play included. although i didnt ask whether i can go out, i know i wont be allowed to one. i just want to avoid the shout "NO!", like what i would hear during the times i asked whether i can use the computer.

but this time i dont care and just turned on the comp and my mum came to ask when i will stop using it. i said 1130. so i think i have to go off soon. okay goodnight.

i shouldnt be emotionally weak. right?

2005-05-29T18:56:00.000+08:00

can someone tell me what does my blog name mean? i want to experience my blog name now so much.

i'm so tired. maybe it's cause i'm falling sick. i need someone to talk to. not in huge groups. everybody is going out in huge groups now. they go sentosa and they go movie. i want someone to talk to.

i'm going for my first tuition with my cousin now.

2005-05-29T09:53:00.000+08:00

yesterday we celebrated lionel's birthday with a surprise bday party. HAPPY BIRTHDAY LIONEL!

bye, i should go off for jyc now!

birthday

2005-05-22T01:29:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the most happening birthday i ever had. im so blessed. (:

2005-05-20T00:29:00.000+08:00

i think i will get inferiority complex real soon. after playing soccer, dota and watching the oc.
im retarded.

2005-05-18T23:21:00.000+08:00

no school today. why?

because! our school won gold for all our SYF performing groups(:
early in the morning, i went to howard's house with jun and roy. we played table tennis and swam. went lunch at btp and played pool. den i came home. and slept. woke up, had dinner, and then started playing dota. till now and im blogging now. gonna sleep at 12. or sometime before that.

goodnight.

2005-05-17T11:59:00.000+08:00

yay! today, was some sort of "liberation day!" for the many stressed up classmates i have. liberation day-_-`. haha. actually, i started playing dota yesterday already, not even waiting for the exams to finish today. hurrr! so we went to town after the geog mcq paper. had lunch, played pool and then dota! this is crazy man, im obsessed with dota already! shucks. nvm tmr morning i wont even touch the comp. i will make use of this acsi holiday and have some fun at howard's condo. heehee(: i think we'll be gymming and table tenninsing. and maybe hit the water sometime after that. haha this is gonna be funn. no stress no stress.

for those who are still taking their exams or tests, i didnt mean to make you sad. so, behappy and score A's for your tests and exams. haha.

im quite addicted to blink182's "i miss you", and also lifehouse's "you and me". no,im not indicating anything, but they are really nice(: hmm. yeah, no wonder they're on the charts!

2005-05-15T10:14:00.000+08:00

discovering treasures that maybe guys dont really give a heck about. my minute pile of bus tickets(: looking at these tickets remind me of my past, my happy busrides. and then in that treasure box, i found many many things i liked and kept since last time. my "class monitor" badge, my "napfa" badge, my black and white photo, and blah blah blah. oh man, they rock!(:

inspired by tp's entry, i want to say that yes indeed, many people are very stoic now. maybe it's just like my english class. but i think i can find the main causes of this revolution in our generation.

1. friends sitcom and similar shows.( or issit a sitcom?) you start laughing at them and you can stop laughing at little things that are really funny.
2.us trying to put others down. calling people lame.

aiya i can only think of 2 reasons. brain sprain.

2005-05-11T14:59:00.000+08:00

hello(: im neither a kid nor an adult. history paper is a goner. it's a goner. im so dead. yucks.

behappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappybehappy

now all my papers are quite slack now. but they're dragging to next tuesday!): but acsi has a holiday on wednesday, cause all our performing arts groups won gold for syf.LOL.

2005-05-08T10:13:00.000+08:00

to God:
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
Hold me when I'm scared
and Love me when I'm gone
Everything I am
And everything in me
wants to be the one
that You wanted me to be
I'll never let You down
Even if I could
I'd give up everything
If only for my good
So hold me when I'm here
Right me when I'm wrong
You can hold me when I'm scared
You will always be there
So love me when I'm gone,GOD.

A hundred days had made me older since the last time that I saw your pretty face
A thousand lights had made me colder and I don't think I can look at this the same
But all the miles had separate
They disappeared now when I'm dreaming of your face

2005-05-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

to not disapoint my readers, i shall say a hi here(:

hmm, i'm 13 days away from the end of the exams. isnt that near?

2005-05-01T22:05:00.000+08:00

"when you're not here, i blog.(:"

i'm a sensitive old boy, a bit on the sissy side, and doesn't know how to argue properly. but do-nothing-ness leads to agony and sometimes bitterness.wheee!!

tomorrow's a holiday and it's a good day.(:

hero in the sky.

the quote

2005-04-30T21:56:00.000+08:00

a wise man quote "always do what you feel is right inside your heart."

dear diary,

i know i havent been telling you a real entry, but just entries that touch on the surface and go. but sorry diary, i haven't had much time to search deep into my heart. but entries dont really need deep heart words. all they need are words.

what i'm really trying to say is:

i have nothing much to say. i have real life people to tell things to, and i dont really need a blog nowadays to show how i'm feeling/express my angst/show my powderful english/display my beautiful typing.

but i heard blogging is for revealing your thoughts, giving speacial praise to someone/something. that's why blogging is still relevant to me.

BECAUSE i want to praise God now and here. no rhyme no reason. just because HE's GOD.

signing off.

thank God

2005-04-30T11:48:00.000+08:00

thank GOD the first paper's over.
everything went quite okay(:

2005-04-28T15:49:00.000+08:00

woohoo!! tomorrow's physics practical and i'm in shift 2. that means, i get to go school late! weet weet woot woot.

okay guess what? i went to bukit timah and ate egg prata plus milo dinosaur..alone. now i realised it's quite weird to eat alone(: haha. i love prata man. imagine the cripsy thing, covered by the salivary amylase in your mouth..ahh, feel the sensation of the PRATA inside. yummy(: and and, the milo dinosaur. it's the first time i actually tasted milo dino, wah fantastic. you should go try it too. you will get your money's worth. (btw, i am one of the bosses of the shop. tell madhur you're nathan koh's friend and you'll get a great discount.) (: okay, im kidding. hurhur, funney..

while in jun's car just now, he told me we have 2 months plus of exam left this year. wow. 2 months plus. mid years, prelims and the o's. happy new year man:D what an exciting adventure!

okay, i think i shall go and bathe and start studying. all the best for those who have papers.

want to go eat prata? haha.

2005-04-27T22:29:00.000+08:00

i dont really like exams. ahh..2 and a half weeks.torture? ohwell, i'm a olevel student.

2005-04-26T16:39:00.000+08:00

3 more days to the first paper. heehee

im quite attracted to damien rice at this point of time. i just reached home. have you?haha. you must have reached home if you are read this. i'm such a genius man!

okay bye. i go bathe liao.toot.

2005-04-24T23:27:00.000+08:00

nathanopenyourbigmouthpleaseandtalk. you retard.

my first time

2005-04-24T22:39:00.000+08:00

this is my first time. i have no idea what it is, how it is gonna be, what it is gonna be like. it's so difficult to do things the right way, so against what i want, what i always dream of doing, and what i wished i could do.

i couldnt do so many things, yet these "dont do so many things" are good for everybody. but i want to cry. i just did. all cos i cant do many things that i want to do.

and so, i hate myself for not being brave enough. for not taking any step to do anything.

but im trying!

do you understand what im writing? most probably no. (: